Just recently my mom, older brother and sister went off to Johor Bahru for 2 days, their coming back today but i dont know when.. So whos left over here is my dad, my other younger sister and myself of course.. What i realised is that the house environment and ambience is totally different.. its more quiet, more dark because lights arent turned on as much, and you feel like wait a minute.. wheres everyone?.. But thats not my point of the whole topic.. throughout this 2 days with the abscence of my mother, sister and brother, most of the time its me and my dad at home coz my other sister is out most of the time socialising..
So, i was doing my assignments in the room as usual and i went to the kitchen to get a drink and a break. Then i saw my dad with kitchen stuff everywhere, it was a mess the freezer was defrosting so it was wide open and the contents were on the dining table, appliances and microwaves unplugged, mop on the floor, curtains took off and so its just natural for me to think that my dad was doing a big cleanup for the kitchen. I took my drink and went back to my room and continued working all day while i could hear sounds from the kitchen of my dad shifting stuff, nailing, throwing, sliding, gliding haha.. well not sliding or gliding but it would be cool if he was doing that while cleaning everything up.
Hours passed and i took another break from work.. i decided to walk around the house, get a drink and get some fresh air outside. I went to the kitchen and my dad wasnt there but the kitchen was much more cleaner, organised and smelled good somehow..So i took another drink and walked to the front living room heading towards the front door to get some fresh air. Then i saw my dad watching tv by himself.. still with his cap and clothes that he wore working in the kitchen.. Well it may be something not so special or crazy or unique to see everyday at home but somehow when i saw that.. it made me think... why all of a sudden he decided to take this big effort to cleanup the kitchen all by himself while my mom and sister and brother was not at the hse?.. well safe to say my other sister can be counted as absent too coz shes out almost 24/7.. So after staring at him from the back watching tv and thinking, i just came to my own conclusion that he did it to suprise my mom. and the fact that he loves my mom thats why he wants to suprise her in a way..and that thought itself brought me into thinking a whole other stuff too like why didnt i helped him? why he didnt ask for my help? I came to my own conclusion again that maybe he understands that i have responsibilities now and assignments from my college. Before this he would always ask me or one of my siblings for help without fail if he is working on something. and that made me think even more that eventhough my father is sometimes strict and short tempered, going through financial problems and all.. he has always love this family and always meant good and had good intentions eventhough some of them didnt work out or wasnt the right way for us..
I was talking to a close friend of mine about family.. and how we could not find any other unconditional love that only our family can give.. Its true, its honest and its unconditional.. and the responsibilities of me myself right now towards them after they have took care of me from day 1 at the hospital and fed me and gave me education.. Its human nature for all of us to take our families or in particular, our parents for granted because we see them everyday, we talk to them everyday and we get money from them everyday... that image of my dad sitting and watching tv by himself surrounded by darkness coz the lights werent on somewhat gave me a whole new perspective.. and my emphathy for him.. as a son, i feel that i should give back to my parents for all their hardships, frustration and stress that was experienced by them just to make sure that we have a bright future.. we might not get certain things that they do as a child, but maybe when were in their shoes, we would know how it feels like.. I would consider myself to be still young and the future is untold and unknown for me, but what i do know is my appreciation for my parents. How they had to grow together as a cpl to a married cpl to becoming parents and also my current responsibilities to them to give back as much as i can and make them proud and happy to see their child succeed in life. As we grow older the amount of responsibilities grow as well so, i was glad that this "occasion" happened if not, i wouldnt be thinking of all this, and writting this post on my blog..
